Mazagain, I understand your upset and fear, it sounds like you didn't have a lot to lose to begin with.
Sadly I have struggled with my weight since I was 11 years old. Recent diagnosis of pcos as well as hypot seems to answer why this is
I have 4 periods in my life where I have been a healthy weight, first was when i first left school went to college, was working 2 jobs also...too much activity and no where near enough food, drink or sleep. I nearly ended up in hosp. Then I finished college, got full time job and gained weight. Too much weight.
Then the second time was when I divorced. Stress, anxiety etc were all the usual reasons.
Then once I found my feet and happiness once again the weight followed. This time after a number of cycle on clomid whilst trying for a baby with my second husband (the doctor I believe knew my pcos then but didn't share with us)
My third weight loss was 4 years ago following weight watchers. Very strictly almost obsessively. Soon as I began to maintain my weight crept back up. I am not a snacker, we as a family eat healthily. So have struggled to understand why I gain weight so quickly and easily on calories normal people lose weight on, but now I know.
Am currently 4 stone over my optimum BMI weight. I have high blood pressure too. I have been following a diet for the last 3 months at 1500 calories per day and have lost a grand total of approx 2 lb. it sucks!!!
It is not just about weight tho...other symptoms still here are tiredness, but difficulty in getting to sleep. Hair loss. Broken flaky nails. Aching hips, back, even my toes hurt at times.
Then the emotional symptoms, dark thoughts, tearfulness, confusion, forgetfulness, brain fog. Some days I truly feel I am losing the plot or lost it...
I wish to feel normal.